I don’t want to be a Taxi

I am always surprised to see the character in the novel turned movie, I don’t always hate the actor sometimes I even like them but the thing is they are not as I imagined they should be. It’s true that while reading I didn’t always have the idea about the characteristic features of their look say their face, sometimes the face isn’t there at all or it’s blurred or hazy.
But this isn’t just a problem while watching a movie this is more than that this is mostly about when I see myself in the mirror. I always see the same face which I don’t think I hate even though I do a bit but the features of my face in many ways are mostly not exactly quite similar as I feel myself to be.
Like the character in the movie, I know the inner me which is not always just one thing I have thousands of moods kind, selfish, sometimes clear, and sometimes confused. I am a baby, a boy, a man, a tiger, a dog, and a dolphin pretty much everything I relate myself with, so imagine to look in the mirror and just be presented with one single person or a face with the same long nose same eyes and the same set of ears.
So the face I see in the mirror is no less of a surprise for me as for any reader after seeing any actor as the character which the reader knows about from the novel. So basically someone is playing me and I don’t like who has been cast as me.
At this point we are even advised to cope up with this it is said that we should love ourselves as we are and we should accept this gift of nature by the universe. Well, this sounds well-meaning but try sometimes making a weird smile and you’ll realize that isn’t really you.
So accepting this so-called gift of nature is a problem because I don’t want to accept what I see. After all, I know it’s not me.
You might as well consider your appearance as that of a ridiculous actor’s which the casting agent without any reason just shoved us into.
It feels like my body is a taxi which the universe put me into and not the vehicle which I choose to have of maybe I think I deserve.
I don’t want to be a taxi.